I think it's great to build one's esteem in Toastmasters. But, it seems to me that an awful lot of members utilize Toastmasters as their major source of self-worth, or even use it like religion. When you hear of some members holding memberships in 4 or 5 clubs, doesn't that make you wonder if it's a healthy thing?
For some, it seems Toastmasters IS their religion.
I'm sure some members' faces are turning red reading this post, and smoke is coming out of many people's ears. If this is the case for you, could it be that your personal investment in Toastmasters is too great?